January 2011
21 posts
I like
-The idea of a symphony playing the morning song as the sunrises.
-The smiles of children.
-The way your heart feels when you realize for the first time you love someone.
-The night time.
-To sing with my heart.
-Gods grace.
-The balance the world gives its self.
-Humor that arises from awkward situations.
-To look into an artists eyes.
-The feeling of being renewed in the rain.
-Warm...
I sometimes wonder what my life would be like if I just took a few things out that hurt me a lot, or if situations were different how things could be. The truth is however, I wouldn’t trade how my life is for anything. Sure I get down on myself (a lot,) but that doesn’t mean that those lows don’t make the highs 10 times better. Plus I have more life experience than most people. I...
NFG, Eisley, Paramore, Chad Gilbert and Hayley...
For A long time I still gave Paramore the benefit of the doubt, I still liked them and listened to their music just without really respecting Hayley Williams. That was before yesterday. I THOUGHT Chad Gilbert Left Sherri DuPree of Eisley for Hayley Williams. Simply put I was wrong.
What actually happened was Chad Gilbert, while Sherri and him were married Cheated multiple times and with multiple...
Katie Beddoe, It’ll probably be quite some time until you read this but I do want to write it. You are a fantastic friend already. You are an amazing human being all around. You may not think so right now but if you stop and think you are SO dependable when your friends need you. Do you remember how worried you were when Matt and I broke up and how often you called? You tried to help so...
I love Eisley. They sing words that Help me feel...
if-i-was-real asked: Dear Zander, next week when I don't have work, lets hangout and get some...smoothies...or something...see a movie.. idc
lets hangout :D
next week FOR SURE
like after I get outta class or some shit.
I think I have a day offa work monday or wednesday. We should hangout though :D
lets hangout :D
next week FOR SURE
like after I get outta class or some shit.
I think I have a day offa work monday or wednesday. We should hangout though :D
Forever remembered this way
Kelsey- Metro Station, will always remind me of being on the swings with Kaitlyn Josephsen.
How to Save a Life- The Fray, Will always remind me of when the drama that surrounded drinking in the tenth grade, walking to Dakota’s house to break up with him, when Jessica and I stopped being friends, when one of my friends started doing drugs, and the first talent show of junior year.
On the...
Sometimes
I wonder.
Life throws so many things at me.
I wish I was stronger.
I wish I was more capable of just coping.
Not everything can be as easy as I want,
And even good things can go bad.
However, I wont give up.
In the dark the light shines brightest.
Tomorrow will always be a way to start over.
Why does my mind repeat the same mistake over and over? I don’t even know what to do by this point. Go along, with it and just deal with how frustrating my whole life and thought process is? Is that something I can even do? I don’t know how to even feel, I don’t want the company of people anymore. I just want to be alone and live in a world that is completely alone. Just me and...
The truth is
You draw me in. The truth is I love you. I am a snob. Smash. Smash. So are you. You would agree to it but still not completely believe it yourself. The truth is you are terrible. I don’t profess to know why I love you. I have no reason to love you. I am a snob. Talking to you makes me happier. You don’t misuse English. Smash. Smash! Smash. SMASH. The truth is I hate you. You...
It’s hard to believe in friends when you never see them because their boyfriends are more important that their other friends or when you feel stupid for ever saying anything to them.
I feel like taking too many pills, but I wont so don’t get over dramatic.
I used to think that I tried to push people away because I don’t like people. I guess I just do it because I don’t want to like people. Sometimes it just seems like it would be easier if I were all alone.
I’ve been considering moving lately. Out of the state, away from everyone and just keeping it a secret, so no one will find me. Then wherever I go I just wont let anyone in....
I should stop reading. It’s not good for my emotional health. Some books make me just want to shut down and drown the world out. Movies are fine because I’m seeing other people, but when I’m reading sometimes I just become the characters and I can’t help what evolves from that.
Merm, maybe now that I’ve finished that book I can sleep and force myself to feel like a...
If I had one wish it’d be for you and all your friends that didn’t like me.
If I had one with it’d be that we had danced more at the apocryphal wedding.
If I sound angry, I’m sorry this body can only cry for so long.
and if you want to blame me then go on because I’m smarter than you think.
I’m smarter than you.
I’m smarter than you think.
Well...
Happy again, the lights are much brighter there
I prefer uptown but I do quite enjoy the song. :)
Chasity and Megan are over.
We’re watching Girl, Interrupted. It’s pretty awesome. Well, except that it’s about to get sooooo sad. :/
I’m tired yo’.
A drawing of three
Yep, so that’s happening… I drew three but right now that hand’s not looking too great.
Love means never having to say your sorry.
I think this is going to be the theme of my new year and my main resolution. You may not understand entirely how it could work, but you will. I want to stick with it. It will be what changes me in the right ways. It’s just something I know I need to stick with. Other than that I have no other resolutions, just goals.
1.) Just have fun and relax. This is my last nine months before I am...